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Chapter 7 - Ronan

  The box sitting between us smells like oil and salt and something sharp beneath it, a spice I don't have a name for. The lid opens,a nd heat rolls out in a wave that fogs the clean air of her apartment, and for a second, my body reacts the way it does when fresh bread comes out of the galley oven at sea; muscle memory, hunger deep and automatic, the kind that won't wait for my permission

  I don't move. Thalia notices and takes a piece first. She does it without ceremony, no hesitation, fingers folding the edge of it slightly as if this is something she's done a thousand times without thinking. The cheese stretches and snaps, oils glisten across the surface, and steam curls faintly upward.

  She takes a bite, and I watch her crew. Not because I want to, but because I need to see what happens next. Nothing does.

  She doesn't stiffen or choke or go still the way men do when poison hits. She sighs softly instead, shouldeers loosening as she leans back into the couch. Her eyes close for half a heartbeat, and something like relief crosses her face.

  "It's good," she says, like that matters.

  I force myself to wait. Thirty seconds. A minute. Longer.

  She's still breathing, still alive, still very much herself.

  I reach for a slice. The weight of it surprises me. It's heavier than it looks, dense and hot, the crust firm under my fingers. I bring it closer, sniff it once like a fool, then take a bite before I can overthink it.

  Immediately, it burns my mouth. I hiss softly, jaw locking as heat spreads across my tongue, but the flavor follows close behind; salt, fat, acid, something sweet buried beneath it all. It's not like anything I've eaten before. It's not bread or stew or hardtack or dried fish or fruit gone soft in the sun. It's layered.

  I chew slowly, and my body decides it likes this long before my pride catches up. I finish the slice without realizing it, reach for another, then stop myself and swallow hard. Across from me, Thalia pretends very hard not to smile.

  That's when she starts talking about the Keepers. Not all at once, not like a lecture or a recitation she's practiced. She starts the way people do when they're not sure how much truth the other person can handle. She circles the edges, testing the ground.

  She tells me the Keepers were old, older than her city, older than the systems that hum beneath the floor or the lights that answer to invisible commands. They're older than the rules that govern magic here, older even than the noble houses that pretend they invented it.

  "They didn't rule," she says, hands wrapped around her glass. "Not the way people think of power. They watched, intervened sometimes, and maybe corrected things when they went too far."

  I don't interrupt, I just listen, eyes on her hands and the way her fingers tense when she talks about this part.

  "They could move between places," she continues. "Not just across land or sea, but between... states, if that's what you could call them. Worlds, layers of space and time. No one agrees on the terminology anymore."

  That part gets my attention. I lean back slightly, the couch creaking under my weight. "You're tellin' me there were people who could walk out of one world and into another?"

  "Yes."

  "And you're sayin' that like it's settled fact."

  Her mouth tightens. "It's not settled, but there's enough evidence that most serious scholars agree it was possible."

  Scholars. Another word that tastes strange.

  She talks about ruins, about structures that don't match the era they're found in, about artifacts that don't respond to modern magic or technology the way they should, and about records that reference figures appearing during crises and vanishing once balance was restored.

  "Then they're done," I say. "All of them?"

  She nods. "That's the mystery. They just disappear from the record entirely. No bodies, no final battle, no collapse event, just... absence."

  I think of my own fall. The way the world tore open and spat me out somewhere else entirely. But I don't say that out loud.

  "People argue about why," she says. "Some think they destroyed themselves, other think they left. A few believe they're still here, just dormant."

  "And you?" I dare ask.

  She hesitates for a moment. "I think something forced them out," she says finally. "Or pulled them away. And whatever it was, it wasn't clean."

  The room feels smaller after that.

  She goes on to explain that Keepers weren't saints. They made choices, sometimes brutal ones, sometimes choices that looked monstrous to the people living through them. "History remembers consequences, not context," she says softly.

  I swallow another bite of pizza, slower now. "If they were so powerful," I say through a bite of food, "why does anyone miss them?"

  "Because when they left, magic stopped having a conscience."

  She explains how the noble families rose after the Keepers vanished. How magic became something hoarded, inherited, and enforced. She tells me how bloodlines started to matter more than restraint or balance.

  "How do you know all this?" I ask plainly.

  She looks down at her lap, hands fidgeting there. "My parents were killed by a noble house," she says. "Officially, it was an accident. A containment failure. Unofficially, they were in the way."

  I don't speak.

  "They weren't powerful; they weren't really even part of anything important. They were researchers, archivists; they believed magic should be understood, not worshiped." Her jaw tightens slightly. "If the Keepers had still been there, that wouldn't have happened. At least, that's what people like to say."

  I feel something cold settle in my gut. "And you think the Keepers killed them?" I ask carefully.

  She shakes her head immediately. "No, I don't. I don't think the Keepers would've let it happenat all."

  She doesn't know, not yet. I let her keep talking.

  She looks smaller when she talks about them. Not physically—she's still solid, still real—but like something inside her has folded in on itself. Her shoulders draw in just a fraction, chin dipping as her fingers twist together in her lap. She stares at nothing in particular, eyes unfocused, voice steady only because she's practiced keeping it that way.

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  Something in my chest tightens.

  I don't know why. I've heard worse stories told with less grace. I've buried men who never made it to adulthood. Loss isn't rare where I come from. It's expected. But this feels different. Quiet. Unfinished.

  Before I can think better of it, before I can stop myself, I reach out.

  My hand closes around hers.

  Just for a second.

  Her skin is warm, softer than I expect, fingers tense beneath mine like a startled animal. The contact jolts through me, sharp and grounding all at once, like grabbing a rail in heavy seas. I don't squeeze. I don't pull. I don't even know what I meant to do.

  I just know that for a heartbeat, it felt right.

  Then she yanks her hand back like she's been burned.

  "Don't," she snaps, already standing, the word cutting clean through the room.

  I freeze.

  The air shifts instantly, tension snapping tight where it had been soft. She takes two steps away from me, back straight, arms crossing over her chest like armor she's learned to put on fast.

  "I—" I stop myself, swallow. "I'm sorry."

  The words feel clumsy and inadequate, but they're honest.

  She doesn't look at me right away. Her breathing is controlled, deliberate. When she finally turns back, her expression is closed off, something shuttered behind her eyes.

  "I didn't mean—" I start, then stop again. Excuses feel wrong here. "I won't do it again."

  Her shoulders ease just a fraction at that. Not trust. Not forgiveness. Just acknowledgment.

  "I know you didn't mean anything by it," she says after a moment, quieter now. "But still."

  "Still," I agree.

  She sits back down, farther away this time, leaving a careful distance between us. The moment is over, but it leaves something behind—an echo, a question neither of us is ready to ask.

  I watch her from the corner of my eye, the way her jaw tightens, the way she keeps her hands firmly to herself now. Whatever happened to her, whatever shaped that reaction, it wasn't small. It wasn't quick.

  I feel an unfamiliar twist of something like guilt.

  Then she starts talking again, picking the thread back up like nothing happened.

  She tells me how Keepers were rumored to recognize one another across worlds. How their presence distorted reality in measurable ways—localized disruptions, spikes, fractures.

  The same words she used in the lab.

  I set my slice down slowly.

  "And how do they recognize a Keeper?" I ask.

  Her eyes flick up to mine.

  "They don't," she says. "Not directly. They recognize the wake."

  I feel the echo of falling, of being pulled apart and stitched back together by something that didn't care if I survived the process.

  She keeps talking. About how some scholars believe Keepers were taken as children, removed from their birth worlds for reasons no one understands. How others think the role is inherited, or chosen, or forced. I stop listening to the words and start listening to what she's not saying.

  "That's why you think I'm one of them," I say.

  The air between us tightens.

  "Yes," she says.

  I laugh once, sharp and humorless. "You're wrong."

  "I don't think I am."

  I lean forward, forearms braced on my knees. "I'm a pirate."

  "That's not mutually exclusive," she points out.

  "I grew up hungry," I snap. "I bled for every scrap of power I have. No one trained me. No one chose me." I feel tears start to swell behind my eyes. What the hell, I don't cry, I can't cry.

  Her voice stays steady. "That doesn't mean no one moved you."

  I stand abruptly, pacing once across the room. The walls feel closer again. The hum beneath the floor is louder.

  "You're telling me I'm some ancient balance-keeper," I say, "when I don't even know how I fell here."

  "I'm telling you," she replies, "that whatever you are, the world noticed when you arrived."

  I stop moving.

  "That doesn't make me special," I say quietly. "It makes me a target."

  She doesn't argue; instead, she says, "That's why the Keepers mattered."

  I turn back to her slowly.

  "They weren't rulers," she continues. "They were safeguards. People who could step in when systems failed. When power tipped too far in one direction."

  I think of storms that come out of nowhere. Of men who think they can tame the sea until it reminds them otherwise. "And you think they're gone," I say, "because the world didn't want safeguards anymore."

  She nods. The silence that follows isn't empty; it's heavy with implication.

  I sink back onto the couch and run a hand through my hair. My name presses at the back of my mind like a bruise.

  "So," I say finally, "if I am what you think I am... what happens to me?"

  Her answer is quiet.

  "I don't know."

  I believe her, which terrifies me.

  I reach for another slice of pizza, more out of habit than hunger, and stare at the city beyond her windows. A place built on light and certainty and systems that assume tomorrow will look like today.

  If Keepers once stood between worlds, I wonder what it says that one has fallen into hers by accident. wonder what it says about me that, for the first time since I was a child dragged out of the sea, I don't know which world I belong to.

  The slice goes limp in my hand, grease cooling against my fingers. I lower it back into the box and wipe my palm against my thigh, suddenly aware of how out of place my body feels here. I am too large for the furniture, too heavy for a room built for lightness and ease.

  Outside her windows, the city doesn't slow. Lights pulse in steady rhythms, colors shifting in patterns I don't understand, streets glowing like veins carrying something bright and alive through the bones of the place. There's no darkness here, not really.

  Thalia shifts beside me, restless now. The ease she had earlier, the soft slump into the couch, the way her shoulders loosened with the first bite of food, it's gone. She's wound tight again, gaze flicking toward her tablet on the table, toward the door, toward the windows. Her fingers tap against her knee in an uneven cadence.

  She's listening for something, I realize. Or bracing for it.

  "You should sleep," she says sudden;y. Her voice is steady, but it doesn't quite land. "We both should. If you can."

  Sleep. The word settles over me like a suggestion rather than an expectation. I haven't slept properly since before the storm, before the fall, before the world tore open and decided I belonged somewhere else.

  "Where?" I ask.

  She hesitates, then gestures down the narrow hall. "The spare room, I used to room with somebody. It's not much, but it's yours. At least for now."

  For now. Everything here is provisional, temporary, borrowed.

  I push myself up from the couch slowly, giving her time to read my movement, to decide if she needs to brace. She doesn't move, but her shoulders draw back just slightly, like she's reclaiming space. I respect that.

  When I pass her, close enough that I can feel the warmth of her through the air, she flinches. It's small, barely there, but it hits me harder than her earlier shout. She thinks I might hurt her.

  I stop in my tracks. "You don't need to be afraid of me, darling. I'm not going to touch you again."

  The words feel strange in my mouth; promises usually do. Where I come from, consent seems to be assumed or taken, not spoken aloud. But this matters to her, I can feel that it does.

  She looks up at me then. There's no surprise in her eyes, and something like relief, she hasn't decided whether to trust yet. "Thank you," she says plainly.

  It's a small exchange, but it feels heavier than it should.

  The spare room is narrow and clean and unused, like a place meant to exist rather than be lived in. The bed is neatly made, sheets tucked tight, corners sharp enough to cut. A desk sits against one wall, stacked with unopened mail, old notebooks, and a few books whose titles mean nothing to me. The window looks out over the city's glow, glass faintly humming with whatever keeps the place alive.

  I sit on the edge of the mattress and let my weight settle. The bed dips beneath me, adjusting itself as the couch did earlier, and I stiffen before forcing myself to breathe through it. I don't lie down right away.

  I unlace my boots slowly, methodically, setting them down side by side on the floor. The act grounds me. Leather, wear, familiar weight. It's proof that I'm still real.

  When I finally lie back, I keep my eyes open.

  The ceiling is smooth, unbroken, and lit by a soft glow that never flickers. There's no bean to track, no crack to memorize, nothing to anchor myself to if the world shifts again. I listen instead to the hum of the building, to the distant sounds of people outside, to the soft clink of Thalia moving around the kitchen. She's cleaning, I think. Or pretending to.

  Every world has its monsters. In mine, they roar and bleed and drown you if you're foolish enough to think you can tame them. Here, in hers, they wear titles and bloodlines and bury their violence in language soft enough to pass for civility.

  And somehow, without meaning to, I've walked straight into the middle of it.

  I want to go home.

  From the other room, I hear her footsteps pause. I hear the faint sound of glass set down too carefully. Then, very softly, like she's speaking to herself or nobody at all, she says, "If I'm right about you, things are going to get so complicated."

  I close my eyes.

  "Oh, my love," I murmur under my breath, the word pulled from habit and salt air and years of bad decisions, "they already are."

  Sleep doesn't come easily. When it does, it's shallow and sharp-edged. I dream of falling again—not through darkness this time, but through light so bright it burns. I dream of hands pulling me apart and stitching me back together with no regard for what I was before. I wake with my heart hammering and the taste of ozone on my tongue.

  The city hums on, indifferent.

  And somewhere deep beneath its foundations—beneath the systems and safeguards and rules that assume tomorrow will look like today—something old and patient shifts. Just enough to notice that I'm here. Just enough to start paying attention.

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